Change

Not much of a pacifist.

Dave left for New York a few hours ago.  It's just me and the boy-oyz till Thursday.  I don't particularly like when he goes out of town, but it's part of the job so whatever.  I'm a baby and don't like being the only adult in the house in case--God forbid--something were to happen.  I'm one of those paranoid girls that makes the dog sleep on the bed at night and keeps a gun under the pillow.  It's only a few days, I will be fine.  I'll probably just be a bit sleep-deprived is all.

So, I talked to my friend Caitlyn and asked her to completely change my hair.  While I am a BIG fan of my dark hair, Dave has been mentioning "hi-lites" again--to which I mentioned "British accent" again.  The accent has not happened. However, I figure it won't hurt to change up my hair seeings that is has been the same color for almost 5 years now with little variation.  Now I am trying not to have unrealistic expectations for this transformation.  I know that I will not be blonde, pieces will be.  I think my hair is too dark (and dyed) to completely reverse it like that.  So, I'm asking for it to be lightened and have blonde hi-lites put in.  I guess as long as it is not orange, i will be happy.  She told me that she "does not do orange."

ideal

I am a little worried about how it will look with my complexion though.  I have yellow undertones in my skin, so i'm afraid my hair will make me look like a victim of liver failure.  And I know it will take time to get used to, so i am also concerned about the expression on my face when she is done.  I am so used to my hair being almost black that I think any change will be a big shock and will sort of scare me.  The last time I had my hair radically changed (color-wise), I hated it at first and thought it looked horrible.  But I liked it after a few days.  I'm not very good at hiding my emotions.  unfortunately, I am very heart-on-my-sleeve, which does not always benefit me or those around me....  I hope I don't hurt her feelings.  :/

Ideally, my hair would look like this:
But I feel that I am really reaching....
not sure, it may be attainable.  (Wouldn't mind if my face and body looked like her's as well.  just saying.)

Regardless, this is being done Tuesday.  No turning back!  not because I can't, because I won't.  :)

More "change" news.......
Dave told me that he wants to have a girl.  Like within the next 2 years.  Not sure how i feel about this...  On the one hand--terrified and appalled.  On the other--ehhh??  maybe???  He asked me to think about it.  Previously, all I had been thinking about was sterilization.  hmm.  We'll see.  We would have to invest in that book How to Make a Girl though, cuz I'm pretty sure he can only make boys.